Asian? Haha kinda weird kid at college

So I thought I'll do something a little different.

My name is Tim. I was born March 7th, 1991. I have black hair and deep brown eyes. I have a sister, a brother in law, a mom and a dad. I'm not one for labels nor am I one for chaos. I go my own way with influences from others. At times I'll conform, while other times I'll swim against the current. I'm proud to be who I am even though I can't always express myself. I'm not normal by any means, but then again, who is? I don't dare to be different, I just am. I don't strive to rebel its just sometimes I do. I think too much and talk too much, usually about pointless things. I'm artistic and bland. I love to shop and I hate to spend money. I'm a person you'll either love to hate or hate to love. Or maybe you're one of the few who just likes me. I'm desperate and hopeless. I fail at life and love all the same. My friends mean the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without them.

I don't know who I am or why I'm here. All I know is that I am. I'm living a life of chaos and order one day at a time and there's no way to make it fly by. I am who I don't want to be and at the same time am content with who I am. I hate the things that make me flawed, even though some of them I know I cannot fix. Some are in my head and some are just there. I have the worst body image and want to 'fix' myself, but don't work towards it. I have too many passions in life and I'm just confused overall.

I'm a watcher, a wallflower, an observer. I'll give you advice but never take it myself. I hate being reliant but I can't help. I'm the type to watch the one I love be with someone else and smile for them than myself. There's too much out in the world to not know and too much to know. I want to experience everything yet at the same time nothing at all which is an experience in it of itself. I'm a person who will help you to no end yet hates getting help himself. I hate burdening those I love and rather them be happy than myself. I'm the self-sacrificer who will be selfish. I'm an optimistic pessimist who hopes when he knows and believes it only leads to disappointment. I have dozens of masks yet each one is a part of the 'big picture.' Many people know who I am but very few, if any, actually know me.

I'm hard working, yet lazy and lethargic. I'm a hopeless romantic who will probably never get too far. I'm the one who strives for more yet settles for so much less. I'm a mess of contradictions that all make sense. I'm a jumble of interconnected people and serve only as a bridge between worlds. I'm a person yet not. I have depth and personality yet I'm shallow and not worth knowing.

All in all, what does that make me and where do I belong?