I recently got into men smoking Reds, and got introduced to the hot videos on youtube. That's why i'm here.

I've never been a smoker, and i generally hate being in a room with others smoking, but my new fetish has encouraged me to start experiencing the smoke for myself.
The thought of it is hot, but i found the first 3 very difficult, even over 4 days.

I've decided to smoke a pack of 20 Reds over time, and then to decide whether to stop smoking after that or to buy another pack.

Inhaling made me feel sick at first, but now I can inhale freely with no bad effects.
With each Red, the pleasure increases.
I have big health concerns about it, and I feel guilty about it because I've been a lifetime anti-smoker, and nobody knows that I'm doing this, apart from you and other smokers on youtube.

I'm finding it a lot more seductive than I imagined it would be. With each one, my body seems to be more receptive, more naturalized to it, and more eager to inhale it deeper.

The decision after this pack of 20 Reds will be a very difficult one for me.
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UPDATE:
Doing well now. Bought a pack of 10 after the first pack, and now onto the next pack of 20 Reds, and smoking 1 each day, with 2 some days.
Got into the habit of Inhaling deep and hard every time.
Making good progress. Loving it!