Terence Rowe

was the only person I could trust anymore. He was the most amazing guy I have ever met in my entire life, and he always will be. I couldn't be more thankful that he was a part of my life. I know I wasn't the best girlfriend for him, and there's no way I deserved him. But he was always there for me, and I couldn't ask for anymore. All of our memories can't and never will be replaced. I wish I could go back in time, just like we talked about before. When I sat at home talking to you, we always used to talk and try to find ways to go back in time so we could be together again. I told you the first place I would go back to. And you know I would never change that. I wish I could be with you right now. I sit here and think to myself that it can't be true and this is all just another bad dream. Out of all the people, it had to be you. Just like you said, I wish I could go back in time. I wish I could tell you. But I can't. You're gone. I'm here. I have no idea what to do or where to go from here. I can't go home because I was only home with you. You made me so happy. I look out the window and keep hoping I see you driving that truck coming to pick me up. You never got to throw me in the pond like you wanted to. If I knew what was going to happen maybe I actually would've let you this time. We never got to go bowling either, like you wanted to. And who's going to keep me from being scared at haunted houses during Halloween next year? We'll never get to go back to the haunted prison. I'm going to miss seeing you in the hallway as you smile and wink at me. I'm going to miss walking to Cramers class while I tried to get you to go for me instead. I'm going to miss the smell of you and how whenever I even thought about you, it made all the pain go away and I was happy. My homecoming dress still smells like you, by the way. I'm going to miss going over to your house. I'm going to miss hearing you say how your family was crazy, even though I loved them anyway. I'm going to miss you're voice, and how it sent shivers down my spine. I'm going to miss being in your arms, knowing that I was save from anything life would throw at me. I'm going to miss holding your hand, and how your class ring would always leave a mark on my finger for me to look at after you left. I'm going to miss kissing you, which took my breath away everytime. I'm going to miss our fights over who loved who more, and who was more amazing. I'm going to miss you bugging me to always make the decisions, which I am still bad at, by the way. I'm going to miss getting those notes from you on my white board in my locker, which by the way, I still have the one that says "I love Miranda -trowe-". I'm never letting anyone ever erase that. I'm going to miss those dirty looks from Mr. Huffman when he saw us holding hands. I'm going to miss sending you bumper stickers to tell you just how much I love you. Most of all, I'm going to miss you, and how you were so forgiving and thoughtful and wonderful. You mean the world to me. I love you so much, Terence, with all my heart. Words don't even begin to describe how much I love you. I said forever, and I meant it. I could never find another guy so amazing as you. There is no way I will ever forget you. I can't believe your gone. All I can do is cry. I hope there's hunting in heaven for you. With country music and a cowboy hat. :)
RestInPeace, hun.